Emotions Flowing Like Ink

For all I know this too is a part of my dream, a dream called the IDEAL LIFE. Throughout the day I see innumerable successful and content people. I wonder whether there is something that I should be looking forward to in my journey towards satisfaction. Asking myself the same question every day, “What am I passionate about?” Over the many years of my existence, experience told me, for most inhabitants of Earth passion is of utmost importance and the will to go through with achieving what you desire is what being focused is. Now, I ask a very simple question. What if my passion lies not in my heart and mind but my eyes for a different, unusual object? I may not be passionate about machines as an engineer is, or in the history of unbelievable sculptures like a historian or an artist. I say I am passionate about more than one thing, I want to learn something new every day because I have a will to pursue everything possible in one lifetime. No one knows when you may die, so why not

Humming to endless songs at 3am,  Trying to make meaning out of nothing,  That's who I am,  Just too involved in thinking.  Can't sleep 'cause the thoughts are so engrossing,  It varies every minute,  From about a person to maybe assembly drawing,  Ciphering every detail unusually minute.  And this ain't just tonight,  The peace, the silence is addictive,  Rewind into past choices,  Contemplate over my prospective.  The night just goes by,  Although I planned to sleep,  Always asking why?  How do I not weep from fatigue?  Is it as I thrive to improve or,  Is it a disorder?  Do these sleepless nights have an explanation,  As I enjoy the silence and flow of thoughts,  Does this have more significance than I realize,  Or am I just insomniac.

Remember that time when..........  20 years from now this is how every conversation is going to begin and the circle of those friends reunited will be teary eyed as it progresses. Nostalgia will be imminent and inevitable. It will bring back floods of memories, good or bad, but more importantly those were the choices that changed your life step by step.  Some crazy ideas and pranks, some joyful moments and appreciation, all these will only yearn you to relive those beautiful days over and over again. Be it school, college or societies you made memories everywhere.  The teacher and professors whom you condemned for less marks are the people you'd always want to go and thank them for the support.  All the mischief during class hours and vying away your time after, never worrying just living in the moment. That person 20 years ago is the one you envy now.  The crushes- big highlight, with all the pairing and teasing while you go around embarrassed. Sometimes its the fights and somet